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Candle Light Vigil on December 5th, In Memory of Ramona Knapp
December 5th marks the anniversary of the untimely death of Ramona Knapp.
Ramona Barbara Bowden Knapp (1954 - 2005) - Find A Grave Memorial
On this day at 6:00pm there will be a candle light vigil on the West Steps of the State Capitol. Please come out and show your sympathy to the family of Ramona. I will be bringing a large card for all to sign. Candles will be provided. This will be a tasteful ceremony, not so much a protest rally.
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Comment from: Mary Smith [Visitor] 
I am extremely moved and touched, and want to express my deepest gratitude for the organizers of this event. Although I would love to attend to show my support for the family, I was arrested in November 2004 after I was sexually assaulted for going to the Capitol to report being twice sexually assaulted by Douglas Farrel, a pscyhotic patient with a long history of violence. I simply would not feel SAFE and although it might not be "rational," because I previously was falsely arrested and 5150'ed for having episodes/attacks of a rare illness , i.e. periodic paralysis and trying to get help at the Capitol.
Again, I fear that this could happen again, especially since I have been in ER a number of times in the last month or so and am currently having a number of serious physical health problems which I do NOT trust UCD or Sutter to treat. Re: unarrested Rapist even though there is a case # 08-320775: I was told by the Clerk in Superior Court, that he was arrested for a violent assault on November 23, 2004 (one assault I believe was on a police officer and he robbed a bank last year in Red Bluff, CA-- this article with his jail house picture is in my filed CMS.)
This arrest for another act of violence was approximately 20 days after I was sexually assaulted twice at night circa October 31 and Nov. 1, 2004 at Sierra Vista on my second and third nights, yet the Police and even the CA AG's Office refuse to followup in the matter, no doubt because I was a "mental patient" at SV. Further, the Black Sierra Vista Hall Monitor, from recent writings/evidence I discovered which I had repressed and "forgot" that I had, even assisted the rapist the first night by giving him the "thumbs up" and in the morning, I watched in horror as Farrell bragged to the Black Hall monitor about his conquest, his not getting detected, and the two "high-fived" each other.
Although I reported that this and the fact that I thought that the Black Hall Monitor may be Sunday Adeiffe, who is the staff member that repeatedly raped the teenager at Heritage Oaks this year to the special investigator at the A.G's Office, they have refused to investigate further because my case is "three years old" and again, happened at Sierra Vista, making me "just a woman psychiatric patient."
Likewise, I have not heard back from the Sacramento City Police except to be defamed by them to the Marin Police, asking the local police to make an unannounced home visit (when I was in the bathroom and then soaking in the hot bath tub for physical therapy. I was angered because this was such an invasion of privacy and the officer insisted that I come to the door in a towel as this was basically an exigent situation given my alleged "mental state" as a "mental patient," even though the 5150's at Sierra Vista were 4 years ago. They soon not only found out that I was both not sucidical and psychotic, "only have" PTSD and Dissociative Disorder NOS, lived in an upscale neighborbood, had a beautiful (rented) condo, a finance who is a well-respected community safety organizer, was the Executive Director of a social justice non profit here in the Bay Area since 1992, a UC Hastings Law school grade in 1989, worked in law since 1977, and perhaps, had a lawsuit against Sierra Vista-- but also got talked to by their Srg. when I lodged a complaint with the Police for unprofessional conduct of a sexual assault victim which further lead to my victimization, while not even offering me assistance with the California Victim of Violent Crimes Program if they indeed believed I was that "unbalanced."
Further, the Sacramento City intake police officer did not even know what Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder was- the trauma reponse that often happens to victims of violent crimes, such as rape and violent, life-threatening assaults (I use to work for the San Francisco Victim Witness Program and am considered to be a trauma specialist). The first thing he asked me is if I was on anti-psychotics. He was so disappointed that I was only on seizure medications and asked for the name of my neurologist at UCSF to discuss that I was raped in the mental hospital!-- which I, of course, refused. (I am now also on heavy duty pain meds for excruciating chronic pain which I forgot to tell him for the serious, debilitating illness which Sierra Vista said I did not have at the time and which Heritage Oaks attempted to institutionalize me for, even though I was gravely ill with them at both hospitals, at UCD and Sutter, they are among my SSD disabilities, and while I kept reporting-- like in Sierra Vista, that I had been sexually assaulted-- their only treatment answer was: FORCED ANTI-PSYCHOTICS and INSTITUTIONALIZATION. It clearly appears that neither PSI like my reported of the sexual assaults and although they refused to acknowledge my pre-existing PTSD, Dissociative Disorder NOS, and numerous Social Security Disability Physical Ilnesses-- which I have been on permanent disability since 1989 and even now have a Disability DMV Placard (not given for psychosis by the way)-- apparently, that was the only way to cover up this repeated reporting and to discredit me, destroy my credibility, truly break me (and it did)and force anti-psychotic drugging on me.
In fact, Dr. Lloyd Benjamin who signed the LPS Conservatorship admitted that "they had lied"-- which meant HO had perjured themselves on court-filed documents under oath in their illegal and unconstitutional attempt to institutionize me, without due process of notice and law and without a hearing in which I attended or gave a knowing, intelligent or voluntarily waiver of my rights, before they attempted to lock me up involuntarily in a locked until of a nursing home for a year on a LPS Conservatorship.
Further, they were only able to accomplish this because they falsely (the spokesperson being Dr. Elazabi) represented as medical doctors to my live-in boyfriend (now fiance) that I was sooooo severely mentally ill that I needed to basically be institutionalized. Thank you for listening again to my story, why I do NOT feel SAFE attending this very much needed rally to honor this wonderful, innocent woman and her grieving and traumatized family who must all deal with this horrific death and murder. We all must help each other and fight the good fight (against corruption, injustice and I believe, evil.) My thoughts and prayers will be with ALL of you that evening, but particularly with Ramona and her family. Most sincerely, Mary Smith
Again, I fear that this could happen again, especially since I have been in ER a number of times in the last month or so and am currently having a number of serious physical health problems which I do NOT trust UCD or Sutter to treat. Re: unarrested Rapist even though there is a case # 08-320775: I was told by the Clerk in Superior Court, that he was arrested for a violent assault on November 23, 2004 (one assault I believe was on a police officer and he robbed a bank last year in Red Bluff, CA-- this article with his jail house picture is in my filed CMS.)
This arrest for another act of violence was approximately 20 days after I was sexually assaulted twice at night circa October 31 and Nov. 1, 2004 at Sierra Vista on my second and third nights, yet the Police and even the CA AG's Office refuse to followup in the matter, no doubt because I was a "mental patient" at SV. Further, the Black Sierra Vista Hall Monitor, from recent writings/evidence I discovered which I had repressed and "forgot" that I had, even assisted the rapist the first night by giving him the "thumbs up" and in the morning, I watched in horror as Farrell bragged to the Black Hall monitor about his conquest, his not getting detected, and the two "high-fived" each other.
Although I reported that this and the fact that I thought that the Black Hall Monitor may be Sunday Adeiffe, who is the staff member that repeatedly raped the teenager at Heritage Oaks this year to the special investigator at the A.G's Office, they have refused to investigate further because my case is "three years old" and again, happened at Sierra Vista, making me "just a woman psychiatric patient."
Likewise, I have not heard back from the Sacramento City Police except to be defamed by them to the Marin Police, asking the local police to make an unannounced home visit (when I was in the bathroom and then soaking in the hot bath tub for physical therapy. I was angered because this was such an invasion of privacy and the officer insisted that I come to the door in a towel as this was basically an exigent situation given my alleged "mental state" as a "mental patient," even though the 5150's at Sierra Vista were 4 years ago. They soon not only found out that I was both not sucidical and psychotic, "only have" PTSD and Dissociative Disorder NOS, lived in an upscale neighborbood, had a beautiful (rented) condo, a finance who is a well-respected community safety organizer, was the Executive Director of a social justice non profit here in the Bay Area since 1992, a UC Hastings Law school grade in 1989, worked in law since 1977, and perhaps, had a lawsuit against Sierra Vista-- but also got talked to by their Srg. when I lodged a complaint with the Police for unprofessional conduct of a sexual assault victim which further lead to my victimization, while not even offering me assistance with the California Victim of Violent Crimes Program if they indeed believed I was that "unbalanced."
Further, the Sacramento City intake police officer did not even know what Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder was- the trauma reponse that often happens to victims of violent crimes, such as rape and violent, life-threatening assaults (I use to work for the San Francisco Victim Witness Program and am considered to be a trauma specialist). The first thing he asked me is if I was on anti-psychotics. He was so disappointed that I was only on seizure medications and asked for the name of my neurologist at UCSF to discuss that I was raped in the mental hospital!-- which I, of course, refused. (I am now also on heavy duty pain meds for excruciating chronic pain which I forgot to tell him for the serious, debilitating illness which Sierra Vista said I did not have at the time and which Heritage Oaks attempted to institutionalize me for, even though I was gravely ill with them at both hospitals, at UCD and Sutter, they are among my SSD disabilities, and while I kept reporting-- like in Sierra Vista, that I had been sexually assaulted-- their only treatment answer was: FORCED ANTI-PSYCHOTICS and INSTITUTIONALIZATION. It clearly appears that neither PSI like my reported of the sexual assaults and although they refused to acknowledge my pre-existing PTSD, Dissociative Disorder NOS, and numerous Social Security Disability Physical Ilnesses-- which I have been on permanent disability since 1989 and even now have a Disability DMV Placard (not given for psychosis by the way)-- apparently, that was the only way to cover up this repeated reporting and to discredit me, destroy my credibility, truly break me (and it did)and force anti-psychotic drugging on me.
In fact, Dr. Lloyd Benjamin who signed the LPS Conservatorship admitted that "they had lied"-- which meant HO had perjured themselves on court-filed documents under oath in their illegal and unconstitutional attempt to institutionize me, without due process of notice and law and without a hearing in which I attended or gave a knowing, intelligent or voluntarily waiver of my rights, before they attempted to lock me up involuntarily in a locked until of a nursing home for a year on a LPS Conservatorship.
Further, they were only able to accomplish this because they falsely (the spokesperson being Dr. Elazabi) represented as medical doctors to my live-in boyfriend (now fiance) that I was sooooo severely mentally ill that I needed to basically be institutionalized. Thank you for listening again to my story, why I do NOT feel SAFE attending this very much needed rally to honor this wonderful, innocent woman and her grieving and traumatized family who must all deal with this horrific death and murder. We all must help each other and fight the good fight (against corruption, injustice and I believe, evil.) My thoughts and prayers will be with ALL of you that evening, but particularly with Ramona and her family. Most sincerely, Mary Smith
11/19/08 @ 09:06
Comment from: Mary Smith [Visitor]
November 20, 2008- 1:00 p.m.-- I again want to thank the organizers of the rally in honoring Ramona Knapp and her grieving, traumatized family and to also bring attention again to the horrific and multiple injustices that have continued to happen at Sierra Vista Hospital since 1991 (when bodies first started to be pulled out according to my research) as well as the multiple and continual violations of human rights over the years that have also happened at the other Psychiatric Solutions Inc. hospital, the sister hospital-- Heritage Oaks, which I learned first-hand. After I kept reporting at Heritage Oaks that I had been sexually assaulted at Sierra Vista, they intentionally lied, hide evidence at the Reise Hearing, hide evidence at LPS Conservatorship Hearings, failed to provide legal notice to me that I was going to be forced on anti-pscyhotics and then, shortly thereafter, locked away in a locked until of a nursing home for a year... I honestly do not know if I am the only patient who was treated this way because I kept reporting being sexually assaulted, or if other patients were also treated in a similiar fashion, but I vividly recall one women for days frantically claiming that she had been raped-- and the staff basically repeatedly ganging up on her and telling her it was a "delusion and pscyhosis," she "was just imagining it," and it did not happen.... At both PSI hospitals, I not only reported to the Head Nurse at Sierra Vista that I was sexually assaulted the first morning, but I continued to report, even put it in writing to the Administration, even called 911 from Sierra Vista (two times-- one for reporting the sexual assaults and one because I had had a bout of periodic paralysis and needed immediate ER medical assistance. I was told and my records show in both facilities that I have "no physical illnesses," despite the fact because of my periodic paralysis and numerous other physical illnesses, I now have a permanent Disability Placard for my car.) I also went to the Capitol to go to Senator Burton's Office to report that I had been raped once I was discharged and that no one had done anything, but I was instead-- arrested there. (The evidence will prove at trial that before all of this, I had FBI Clearance when I worked as a law clerk for the U.S. Attorney's Office in San Francisco. I went from having FBI Clearance to becoming a "criminal" all because I witnessed an illegal cleanup of hazardous, toxic military waste on my proeprty, and kept reporting; and because I kept reporting that, I eventually get 5150'ed and raped 2xs in a facillity; and because I keep reporting both, I then get arrested at the Capitol and then, I am again later 5150'ed back to Heritage Oaks-- where I upon intake report-- one more time to Sharar Elazabi, M.D., that I was sexually assaulted at SV, told the Head Day Nurse, an intern Social Worker two times, and even put in writing to the head of Heritage Oaks, Dr. Robert Treat, that I was sexually assaulted and battered at Sierra Vista Hospital. In fact, I handed this sheet of paper documenting that I had been a victim of violent crimes at Sierra Vista to the Head/Chair of the Hospital in the cafeteria at dinner time and I was barely able to do so because I was soooo broken down at that time, sooo traumatized, sooo physically ill and sooo drugged out. And he said he would do something about it. He, of course, did nothing except fully support and endorse perjured evidence that I was allegedly "Schizoaffective" and "Bi-Polar I, Severe, Psychotic" with NO physical illnesses, and allegedly "pscyhotic and delusional" because I thought I had PTSD, Dissociative Disorder NOS, periodic paralysis, endocrine disorder, and radiation illness (I wore a medical alert bracelet, in fact, and also had a doctor's prescription documenting three of the illnesses with the medications I needed to take. Both Sierra Vista and Heritage Oaks-- although they had the list of my medications from my finance, refused to give me my medications because they refused to acknowledge I had any physical illnesses, even though Dr. Elazabi talked with my endocrinologist who had diagnosed me after extensive testing with secondary hypoparathyroidism.) Further, I written out all of my doctors and said I would give them permission to contact them, I presented medical evidence to them and my fianace did as well (he had approximately 44 pages in fact) but they REFUSED to meet with him after he came to the hospital approximately 8-9 times to the Administration at HO. (I wonder if this has anything to do with his being BLACK. Also, despite the fact that he was always dressed professionally in a casual dress suit, handed his business card that he worked for the US Government (he gets paid by the Department of Defense), and wore his federal government identification ID-- which is huge and has a numerber of his awards on it, Dr. Benjamin, who refused to meet with him on several occasions, writes in my medical records that my finance is "diabled and does not work"-- and basically, has no money.) My finance is a well known and nationally recognized subject matter expert on military hazardous, toxic waste and he went to the US Naval Academy Explosive Ordnance Disposal School in 1964. In fact, he is considered "a legend" at age 63 for his extensive experience and subject matter expertise and knowledge in the areas of exposure to toxic military chemicals and low level radioactive material that I was exposed to as a child because my father was a civilian metallurgist who worked for the United States Military, and operated, among a number of jobs, a military metalury business on our rural property in Northern Nevada County. However, despite the detailed and thorough history that Defendants had on me supported by evidence and testimony from my sister that everything about my father's work history and our business was true, the Defendants' used this as something to be deemed "pscyhotic and delusional," to wrongfully be used against me, discount my reporting of the sexual assaults, and then, justify their attempts to commit me-- even without proper notice of a hearing or representation (which is against the law and a violation of due process/my constitutional rights.)
Because of the repeated wrongful and illegal conduct and acts of the Defendants of Sierra Vista and Heritage Oaks, including my court-ordered after-care psychiatrist, Dr. Lloyd Benjamin, who also sees patients at UCD Behavioral Health and-- (this personally scars me) teaches medical students how to be psychiatrists-- there has been numerous obstructions of justices. The rapist and sexual abusers of both my roommate and myself were never apprehended, probably never even talked to, and now are free to harm others (even though I have made reports to the police). I suspect knowing that sexual predators tend to assault again, they will do so and it again will be vulnerable and helpless women. Further, the individuals who did the illegal 'cleanup' of my father's metalurgy business once my father died-- a number of them who already had criminal records, and several who, in fact, were just released from San Quentin, illegally dumped military hazardous waste whereever and also dumped low level radioactive material in Nevada as well. Because of Defendants' wrongful action to prevent me from pursuing this case, these criminal wrongdoers will no doubt NEVER be caught because the Defendants have delayed this investigation for approximately (6) years. Clearly, Defendants only care about making a profit in their business, and have no regard for the well-being of really anyone, even though the evidence will clearly prove that they knew that they were also obstructing justice in this earlier criminal, environmental tort case and that their falsification and misrpesentation of evidence caused me to delay my investigation and prosecution of the individuals who illegally removed harzardous materials from my father's property in 1999. Similar to the sexual predators that they allowed to go free, they have also allowed-- again, by their for profit and wrongful conduct, other criminals to continue not be held accountable for violation of state and federal environmental and health laws, and they themselves are also guilty of violating state and federal laws-- so many, many times over the years.
It is amazing with the knowledge that both SV and HO had-- how generous they were to let perpetrators off, yet how punitive, oppressive and malicious they were with me when I repeatedly told the truth. The only reason I can think of for this was to coverup the sexual assaults so they could keep their licenses, keep on making a profit (my one stay at Heritage Oaks was $66k)and assuring the public that their ads are true: "We are SAFE."
Thank you again for letting me share. I have a chronic migraine headache, am in constant pain, have both Repetitive Strain Injuries and Carpel Tunnel Syndrome, a back neck (C-5-C-6 bulge and whiplash), so my work product here is not as perfect as I would like it to be. So, since I am legally and permanently disabled, please allow me some variance and understanding and give me special accommodations if it is sometimes hard to follow what I am trying to argue in "these blocks"-- because I find it very, very hard to write in a box! Thank you and God Bless you all. From the bottom of my heart, Mary Smith
Because of the repeated wrongful and illegal conduct and acts of the Defendants of Sierra Vista and Heritage Oaks, including my court-ordered after-care psychiatrist, Dr. Lloyd Benjamin, who also sees patients at UCD Behavioral Health and-- (this personally scars me) teaches medical students how to be psychiatrists-- there has been numerous obstructions of justices. The rapist and sexual abusers of both my roommate and myself were never apprehended, probably never even talked to, and now are free to harm others (even though I have made reports to the police). I suspect knowing that sexual predators tend to assault again, they will do so and it again will be vulnerable and helpless women. Further, the individuals who did the illegal 'cleanup' of my father's metalurgy business once my father died-- a number of them who already had criminal records, and several who, in fact, were just released from San Quentin, illegally dumped military hazardous waste whereever and also dumped low level radioactive material in Nevada as well. Because of Defendants' wrongful action to prevent me from pursuing this case, these criminal wrongdoers will no doubt NEVER be caught because the Defendants have delayed this investigation for approximately (6) years. Clearly, Defendants only care about making a profit in their business, and have no regard for the well-being of really anyone, even though the evidence will clearly prove that they knew that they were also obstructing justice in this earlier criminal, environmental tort case and that their falsification and misrpesentation of evidence caused me to delay my investigation and prosecution of the individuals who illegally removed harzardous materials from my father's property in 1999. Similar to the sexual predators that they allowed to go free, they have also allowed-- again, by their for profit and wrongful conduct, other criminals to continue not be held accountable for violation of state and federal environmental and health laws, and they themselves are also guilty of violating state and federal laws-- so many, many times over the years.
It is amazing with the knowledge that both SV and HO had-- how generous they were to let perpetrators off, yet how punitive, oppressive and malicious they were with me when I repeatedly told the truth. The only reason I can think of for this was to coverup the sexual assaults so they could keep their licenses, keep on making a profit (my one stay at Heritage Oaks was $66k)and assuring the public that their ads are true: "We are SAFE."
Thank you again for letting me share. I have a chronic migraine headache, am in constant pain, have both Repetitive Strain Injuries and Carpel Tunnel Syndrome, a back neck (C-5-C-6 bulge and whiplash), so my work product here is not as perfect as I would like it to be. So, since I am legally and permanently disabled, please allow me some variance and understanding and give me special accommodations if it is sometimes hard to follow what I am trying to argue in "these blocks"-- because I find it very, very hard to write in a box! Thank you and God Bless you all. From the bottom of my heart, Mary Smith
11/20/08 @ 13:00
Comment from: Sarah [Visitor] · http://www.propublica.org/feature/psychatric-cares-peril-and-profits-psychiatric-solutions-inc/
Big expose on Psychiatric Solutions Inc. by propublica and the la times:
http://www.propublica.org/feature/psychatric-cares-peril-and-profits-psychiatric-solutions-inc
http://www.propublica.org/feature/psychatric-cares-peril-and-profits-psychiatric-solutions-inc
11/22/08 @ 06:47
Comment from: Mary Smith [Visitor]
I was anxiously waiting to read the review on this website about what transpired last night at the Vigal for Ramona Knapp at the Capitol. I pray and hope that all went well. Although I was kindly invited numerous times by the organizations, I did not go because I clearly did not feel safe and it would have been a clear reliving of a number of traumatic experiences there on the Capitol grounds where I both got 5150'ed trying to see Senator Burton from my district to get into the National Institute of Health for a clinical trial for patients with complex cases of Periodic Paralysis (which I have all three according to the top Periodic Paralysis Specialist at UCSF who is both a neurologist and neuromuscular specialist whom I saw on November 3, 2008. I also had a bout of Periodic Paralysis on this last November 24, 2008, in which the Firemen literally had to come through our second floor condo to get me since the illness is life-threatening, e.g. I literally died and had to be revived on the same day, Thanksgiving Eve from suspected respiratory paralysis in 1998-- ironically 9 years to the date. The tragedy here is that I was repeatedly 5150'ed for having bouts of periodic paralysis (once hand-cuffed and put in leg-irons/chains around my waist but fortunately with an IV in my arm in the ambulance ride to UCD despite the fact that the evidence will show that I have had a number of awards and scholarships for being "Ms. Congeniality" over the years and was the top 4% of 58 nations in receiving an International AFS Scholarship for my ability to get along with people. I have years of evidence of being an affable, congenial person-- yet mysteriously, had to be restrained while PARALYSED, thrown into seclusion at SV, 5150'ed at UCD and almost arrested when I disagreed with the doctors and insisted I was paralysis when they said I wasn't-- despite the labs that clearly show that I was hypokelmic, etc.)...Later, after I was sexually assaulted twice at Sierra Vista, now finding evidence that the Black Hall Monitor actually assisted the rapist by monitoring the Night Supervisor's activities by giving him the "THUMBS UP" to get into the room between the 15 minute checks (while afterwards, the Rapist, went down the Hall in the morning, bragged to the Black Hall Monitor about his "success," and the two then "HIGH FIVED." I told the A.G.'s Office Special Investigator only recently that this co-orbination and joint venture of both a staff member and a patient shown a conspiracy to commit a sexual assault, but his office has failed to investigate this assault-- even though the Black Hall Monitor may, in fact, be Sunday Adeiffe, the night staff member at Heritage Oaks-- because this sexual assault is "over 3 years old." The fact that I started to report the next morning, and kept religiously, diligently, and faithfully kept reporting-- even to the point of almost getting institutionalized at Heritage Oaks for my five time reporting, AND being arrested at the Capitol for attempting to report to Senator Burton (who is a close friend of my physical rehabilitation and pain management doctor since 1993 whom I am again currently seeing-- even though Sierra Vista and Heritage Oaks agreed it was necessary to force anti-psychotics on me and attempted to instutionalize me because I "thought-- psychotically and delusionally" that I had "physical illnesses" even though I have been permanently physically ill on Social Security Disability since 1989. The only other "pscyhiatric illnesses" I have are Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder, Dissociative Disorder NOS, appropriate Depression and a drug reaction to such medications as Prozac, Steriods that disappears when I am pulled off of the medication which does not fall into the categories of Bi-Polar Disorder-- not which mandates institutionalization, forced anti-pscyhotics, and the continued cruel and inhuman treatment that I continually received and do often to this day. In fact, I have yet to see that the treatments for Periodic Paralysis, Seizure Disorders, Endocrine Disorders, Occupational Work Illnesses, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorders and Dissociative Disorder NOS-- while wearing a medical alert bracelet for some of the life-threatening ones, are: leg irons; hand-cuffs; waist-chains; seclusion without food or bathroom privileges; arrest at the Capitol when reporting the sexual assaults; being kicked in the back (or tasered); being forced anti-psychotics for telling the truth (while the treating psychiatrists, Lloyd Benjamin, M.D.-- actually admits this in session at UCD in the first session as a "had to do it"), and amoung others-- the most egregious, almost successfully being institutionalized for telling the truth, being denied notice for hearing, repeatedly denied constitutional rights, not being able to present repeatedly medical evidence proving that one was telling the truth; being refused the opportunity to have witness to testify on one's behalf and present evidence and once's behalf; having Marlene Schmidt (sp?)-- the County Investigator of the LPS Conservatorship-- falsely promise to return evidence to Mary Smith of the single piece of evidence given to Dr. Treat which stated that she was sexually assaulted and battered at Sierra Vista-- and even the County of Sacramento did not care if there was a sexual assault at Sierra Vista Hospital and that Heritage Oaks covered it up even months afterwards when IT had FULL KNOWLEDGE... I have the flu, a head cold, chest congestion, etc., and have been in ER three times in the last few months because of the stress of this case, so I could not have made it last night even though I would have loved to had I not been a victim. As outlined above, I clearly did not feel safe, and I can't help but wonder if some of the peaceful assemblers were not hassled, threatened, told to leave, barked at, etc. like I was a number of times when I was at the Capitol. I also wonder if some of them did not also get arrested and that is why there is no posting on this board, since the Administrator of this Board is generously a saint when it comes to timely events and I know she was planning to attend.
Because I have to file my pleadings with the Court-- and got a $250 sanction because I missed the dates (I sold my wedding dress before getting married to pay for it), I have not read all of the wonderful article written by Christia Jewett and another write from ProPublica that was written in the L.A. Times. I can't believe that I was yelled at by the Clerk of the Court that I "should not have" missed my filing because I was twice in the hospital ER's and seeking doctor's order followup care (i.e. cardiologist)-- and that it was a "waste" of my finance's time to be driving up from San Francisco because we would not be able to file for Special Accommodations for a Disability to accommodation the fact that I have relasped in a number of my illnesses. It is unbelievable to me that despite the fact that ADA and the California Law recognize disabilities, and the Court actually has a 1040 form and 1200 Rule allowing for such accommodations, my fiance was, IN FACT, NOT ALLOWED TO FILE WHEN HE DROVE OVER THREE HOURS to the Court. He sat all morning at the Self-Help Center trying to talk to the legal staff, and we would have had to return the next day-- but I was too ill and decided to take my wedding dress back, get married in a pair of nice slacks that I have, and not make myself anymore ill over this case. (Besides, no one seems to be obeying the law in Sacramento County anyhow. So, I am going to work with the attorney when I get one to change venue to Federal Court here in San Francisco since I am clearly too ill to travel now to Sacramento; I feel it is too dangerous health-wise since none of the hospitals except Mercy's treated me well, but they do not know my illnesses and my next stop-- since Heritage Oaks deprived me of going to the National Institute of Health for the clinical study of complex cases of periodic paralysis in which they would have treated all of my illnesses and monitored me for life with a special NIH bracelet-- thus basically preventing me from future similar malpractices-- is Stanford. It would be an impossible trip from Sacramento in an ambulance to Standord if I have another bout of paralysis (they tend to come in clusters when my heath is so impaired)-- and I just sooo hate chains. You too? Thank you for letting me vent again, hear my story, and hopefully, but supporting me, I can then also return the favor in helping support the other victims, especially since I have been the Executive Director of a social justice nonprofit since 1992-- which most of the Defendants have called a "delusional and psychotic" entity. (The evidence at trial will prove the country.) Despite my current head cold, flu, neuromuscular flare with pain off the scale now (I have done 23 hours of physical therapy-- which I guess was well worth getting chewed out by the Clerk of the Court.I pray to God-- not to be mean, but to teach her not to Judge and to perhaps teach her to be humble, and perhaps more compassionate and empathic to the disabled in the future-- that someday she is in such pain or is so scared of loosing her life, that she gets a flashback of those moments when she chewed individuals out who missed filings, chastised them for doing do, and then even prevented them the avenue to amend and present evidence on their behalf in a fair and equitable manner in a court of justice and law....It seems, to me-- if individuals in Sacramento County can't even use the Superior Court of Sacramento to have their victim rights heard, then we certainly need to go to HIGHER COURTS like the Federal Courts-- because they do reign SUPREME over the local and state jurisdictions. If there is anything I have learned over the last ten (10) years of which my case actually covers in issues-- is that the only individuals and agencies who are currently helping me and who are on the same plate are agencies on the federal level-- and believe me, there eyes are WIDE OPEN. Thank you. (Hint, please don't waste your time at the local levels. Go to the Federal Levels. Clearly, if bodies have been pulled out of Sierra Vista since 1991, then it is clear that the local agencies, even the state A.G.'s Office in Sacramento are not doing their jobs. A better use of time is to flood the legilatures, including Senators Feinstein and Boxer who have jurisdiction over Pscyhiatric Solutions, Inc.-- which is a national corporation doing business in Sacramento. Also, cc: all legistlators in all districts and send blind copies to as many national papers as possible. There is nothing more effective as Freedom of the Press and nothing more humilitating and effective -- like what happened in "Watergate" when someonen or some area which is stating "I am not a crook," if in fact, majorly corrupt-- exposed, but through that inalienable right of "Freedom of Press." However, if we don't use it, then those corrupt individuals in power will remain corrupt and in power. Also, V-P Elect Binden stated that "we need to fight abuse of power where-ever we see it." We all now-- as I view it, if we have a social conscience, have our marching orders, and for the first time in years, we at least have an possibility of being heard and making a difference....I don't see this group as being "mavericks." Nah...We are too sophisicated than that. I rather consider myself--- perhaps us, to be "Rebels." (Hey, I have already been arrested, even though I had FBI Clearance from being a US Attorney Law Clerk-- so what the hey.) And, since the Defendants argue that Mental Illness, i.e. Schizophrenia, Schizoaffective, and Bipolar are "in the genes,"-- and without any review of my parents or family's records, decided to also dignose them with "severe mental illness"-- even though no one has ever been disagnosed as such, I do accept that there is on occasion some family history of hypomania, i.e. from Alexander Hamilton. And, he was probably one of the greatest individuals of our times from my readings, being one of the three key three writers of "The Federalist Papers" which was the beginning of our breaking away from Britian-- and declaring our independence and establishing a democracy...He was called a "Rebel," so I figure that isn't a bad thing to be a times, and I have also read articles that there is a fine-line distinction between alleged "hypomania" and the excuberance/passion and enthusiam that makes inventions, starts nations, wins wars, elections, makes Martin Luther Kings, John F. Kennedys, Ghands, Mandal, and of course, Michele and President Elect Barak Obama, etc. My deep fear is-- had any of these individuals ended up in Sacramento, with a rare illness, with in a down time, as a Vet, with a drug reaction, as a rape victim, as a domestic violence victim, a molested child, had a loved one die, been a victim of police brutality, a victim of elder abuse, a developmentally disabled individual, etc-- any of these individuals, some of them who could have risen to be great leaders, made great contributions to society, wonderful and loving family members (like Ramona Knapp, Steve Burton, Jennifer (Georgia's Mom), the Administrator of this site, my own fiance who suffered deeply, profusely, immensely and whom was repeatedly lied to and mistreated by Heritage Oaks, Dr. Lloyd Benjamin and others (even though-- and the evidence will prove, he was even EOD advance team secret service for four Presidents-- Bush Sr.; Ford; Regan (two terms - Santa Barbara-- Western Detail but often went back to Washington, D.C. in Air Force One with the President and was asked by President Reagan to be at his 2nd Inaguration as probably his only Black Secret Service Agent-- demonstrating no doubt the discrimination and racism repeatedly shown to us as a couple in Sacramento County) and Carter. In addition, both President and Hilliary Clinton know him by appearance and U.S. Senators Feinstein and Boxer asked him to clean up the Roseveille Union Pacific Train Yard unexploded ordnance a few years ago which was left over from the Vietnam War (the evidence will show this at trial and also how my finance went for 44 days to Heritage Oaks with his creditals and medical evidence on my behalf-- but NO ONE at Heritage Oaks or Dr. Benjamin would meet with him. In fact, Dr. Benjamin writes in my medical records-- notwithstanding that my fiance (soon to be husband-- we have had to reschedule our wedding four times because of this case and my failing, disabling health) came to the hospital after work (or during lunch) with his work, professional clothes on and wearing his US GOVERNMENT ID BADGE with his many awards and pins on it-- and also came to every court-ordered doctor's appt. (after the Heritage Oaks LPS Conservatorship was dismissed by the Court. My Mother was right. "All it takes is two pscyhiatrists' signature to put you away forever." It almost, in fact, happened to me at Heritage Oaks-- and I have a juris doctor from U.C. Hastings College of the Law, been working in law since 1977, worked for the U.S. Attorney's Office, CA A.G.'s Office, the San Francisco D.A's Office, the Alameda County D.A.'s Office, the San Francisco City Attorney's Office, was Chairwomen for two years of the Victim Committee of San Francisco Women in Criminal Justice and on the Board of Executive Directors for San Francisco Women in Criminal Justice for two years, sued my law school for sexual harassment and WON, etc.,etc, etc.-- and was TOTALLY helpless against protecting and defending myself against both forced drugging, and being institututionalized on lies and admitted perjured facts, and could not even-- REPEATEDLY report being a victim of several sexual assaults in Sierra Vista and in Sacramento County. In fact, the rapist still is at large even though I have reported to both Sacramento City Police and the AG's Office-- and it is clear, NO ONE CARES....Thank you again for letting me share my truthful story...Even though I know it is rambling as it is extremely difficult for me to write in a box, with a migraine, being ill, etc., I believe no matter now fragments, disoriented, etc. my writing in there, somewhere the reader will be able to pull out the facts. By the way, since it seemed to be of such extreme concern and importance to law enforcement what my medications are, I am not on any anti-psychotics because I do not have: Delusional Disorder; Schizophrenia; Schizoaffective Disorder; Bipolar I or II, or any other delusional or pscyhotic disorder. I have also tested out as not having any character disorders, notwithstanding that a number of defendants have: by looking at me instead of giving me a standardized MMPI-II, decided in their professional opinion that I had to be one or several. (It is akin to the book, "I Am Dancing As Fast As I Can. She paid $50k going to many different doctors and collected a whole list of alleged "mental illnesses." In fact, she had about as many different mental illnesses as she had doctors and appointments-- but she prudently refused to take medications. Go figure about it all. She also stated from her observations that the patients who she kept in contact with who did not seem to recover were those who ended up on meds, particularly the anti-psychotics-- and those were the individuals who tended to cycle in and out of the instutitions and never got there lives back together. Go figure there as well. It is a fascinating memoir, and well worth the read-- and if my ex had not stold virtually all my possessions from years 0-43, I could give you the name of the author.)....Need to take a nap...Please keep up the good fight. I tend to think of the motto, "Onward Christian Soldiers"-- even though some individuals may not believe in a Christian religions. I have more faith in a higher power now than I have ever had because I have soooo-- over seeing much graft and corruption, lost much faith in the human race. After all, when two people get together, they will kick the "shit" out of the third-- or form a gang. Or in the case of PSI, make a huge, $467 Million profit, even if they have to lie, cover up, cheat, manipulate, destroy records, destroy families, murder, rape, repeatedly deny medical care, repeatedly deny constitutional rights, even work with law enforcement with 5150's to have a recycling of profitable patients (there is a working in tandem-- it is a win-win for both sides as will be proven in a court of law.) Anyhow, I am exhausted (and not manic); determined and driven (but not manic); a little OCD (like my cardiologist; my internal medicine doctor, and perhaps Alexandar Hamiliton. I have never had delusions or hallucinations no matter what is falsely written in my medical records. For example, Graduating from law school is not a "delusion" but the Truth, or working and being the first law clerk hired at the US Attorney's Office, San Francisco (allegedly for my common sense)--which will proven in court). Moreover, being pulled off of over 7 or more anti-paralysis medications, endocrine, sleep, anti-migraine and seizure, pain, Chronic Fatigue meds,-- as will be provened in course-- cold-turkey, did, in fact, induce the drastically changed mental and physical state that I had before my first 5150 to Sierra Vista, and which precipated my rape the second and third night-- sexual assaults which under the Penal Code of the State of California are still capable of being prosecuted, but which clearly-- to date, in Sacramento County, are not of concern to law enforcement, the District Attorney's Office, nor the Attorney General's Office, even though I started to repeatedly report the morning after. After all, I was "just a mental patient," and despite my remarkble and impeccable past legal professional and personal history-- being repeatedly sexually assaulted in Sacramento County, particularly in the for-profit hospitals, is really not anything worth nothing, or prosecuting. In fact, the evidence will prove at trial, that such sexual assaults are acts of violences that are repeatedly covered up by many individuals in many different roles, positions and positions of power and in different agencies, because-- after all-- again, this happened "just to a female mental patient in Sacramento County."
My Mormon Grandfather was allegedly one of two government trappers for the US Government in the late 1900's and in the early 2000's. My Father told me when I was in law school that there were two coyotes that were killing cattle around the Salt Lake, Utah area, and that there was a bounty posted on them. Being rough and tough-- and related to Butch Cassidy, my Grandpa Ross tracked them down from Salt Lake City, Utah all the way to the Grand Canyon, and as Daddy said it, "KILLED THEM DEAD." I said, "WOW, DADDY." I think of my Grandfather's tenacity, determination to "get those cayotes" who destroyed repeated the cattle and I can't help but think (and pray) that as time goes on, and that I get a little bit of my broken and scattered self back (and I was soooo totally destroyed in Sacramento that I KNOW I would have put myself in front of a speeding train had I stayed there-- and I was clearly not suicidal before I came to Sac County)-- and I pray that my little bit of the spark starts to be a fire, and I can get the help of others to help me "fight these Giants"-- that maybe I/we can get these cayotes who are leaving soooo many lives in devastation, havoc and with no regard to human live at all with a great profit for them. Also, I think perhaps-- even though PSI, SV, HO, Dr. Benjamins, some docs at UCD and Sutter, some police officers have ruthlessly, cruely and meanly shamed, blamed, and repeatedly abused me (I have been abused: sexually, physically, mentally, emotionally, verbally and spritually. There is nothing left. It does not take a genuis to figure out what I got so clinically sucidically depressed that my only HOPE was finding a speeding train in Sacramento County to stop the excruciating pain that was a but for of all the wrongdoing that had happened in that county.)...Well, it's nap time...I pray that all of you are well and do on a daily basis. This group is always in my thoughts that we make a difference and I hope you know that I also deeply feel your pain-- with all my heart...Warmly, Mary Smith P.S. Will be filing my Ex Parte approximately on Dec. 15 and getting married-- finally at 52 on Dece,ber 17, 2008. Heritage Oaks tried very, very hard to break us apart, but deep love is stronger than any graft, corruption and abuse of power-- at least, this time. Wish us luck. ms (Please note: Because of ill health: Written but not proofed. Thank you so much for your kind understanding.)
Because I have to file my pleadings with the Court-- and got a $250 sanction because I missed the dates (I sold my wedding dress before getting married to pay for it), I have not read all of the wonderful article written by Christia Jewett and another write from ProPublica that was written in the L.A. Times. I can't believe that I was yelled at by the Clerk of the Court that I "should not have" missed my filing because I was twice in the hospital ER's and seeking doctor's order followup care (i.e. cardiologist)-- and that it was a "waste" of my finance's time to be driving up from San Francisco because we would not be able to file for Special Accommodations for a Disability to accommodation the fact that I have relasped in a number of my illnesses. It is unbelievable to me that despite the fact that ADA and the California Law recognize disabilities, and the Court actually has a 1040 form and 1200 Rule allowing for such accommodations, my fiance was, IN FACT, NOT ALLOWED TO FILE WHEN HE DROVE OVER THREE HOURS to the Court. He sat all morning at the Self-Help Center trying to talk to the legal staff, and we would have had to return the next day-- but I was too ill and decided to take my wedding dress back, get married in a pair of nice slacks that I have, and not make myself anymore ill over this case. (Besides, no one seems to be obeying the law in Sacramento County anyhow. So, I am going to work with the attorney when I get one to change venue to Federal Court here in San Francisco since I am clearly too ill to travel now to Sacramento; I feel it is too dangerous health-wise since none of the hospitals except Mercy's treated me well, but they do not know my illnesses and my next stop-- since Heritage Oaks deprived me of going to the National Institute of Health for the clinical study of complex cases of periodic paralysis in which they would have treated all of my illnesses and monitored me for life with a special NIH bracelet-- thus basically preventing me from future similar malpractices-- is Stanford. It would be an impossible trip from Sacramento in an ambulance to Standord if I have another bout of paralysis (they tend to come in clusters when my heath is so impaired)-- and I just sooo hate chains. You too? Thank you for letting me vent again, hear my story, and hopefully, but supporting me, I can then also return the favor in helping support the other victims, especially since I have been the Executive Director of a social justice nonprofit since 1992-- which most of the Defendants have called a "delusional and psychotic" entity. (The evidence at trial will prove the country.) Despite my current head cold, flu, neuromuscular flare with pain off the scale now (I have done 23 hours of physical therapy-- which I guess was well worth getting chewed out by the Clerk of the Court.I pray to God-- not to be mean, but to teach her not to Judge and to perhaps teach her to be humble, and perhaps more compassionate and empathic to the disabled in the future-- that someday she is in such pain or is so scared of loosing her life, that she gets a flashback of those moments when she chewed individuals out who missed filings, chastised them for doing do, and then even prevented them the avenue to amend and present evidence on their behalf in a fair and equitable manner in a court of justice and law....It seems, to me-- if individuals in Sacramento County can't even use the Superior Court of Sacramento to have their victim rights heard, then we certainly need to go to HIGHER COURTS like the Federal Courts-- because they do reign SUPREME over the local and state jurisdictions. If there is anything I have learned over the last ten (10) years of which my case actually covers in issues-- is that the only individuals and agencies who are currently helping me and who are on the same plate are agencies on the federal level-- and believe me, there eyes are WIDE OPEN. Thank you. (Hint, please don't waste your time at the local levels. Go to the Federal Levels. Clearly, if bodies have been pulled out of Sierra Vista since 1991, then it is clear that the local agencies, even the state A.G.'s Office in Sacramento are not doing their jobs. A better use of time is to flood the legilatures, including Senators Feinstein and Boxer who have jurisdiction over Pscyhiatric Solutions, Inc.-- which is a national corporation doing business in Sacramento. Also, cc: all legistlators in all districts and send blind copies to as many national papers as possible. There is nothing more effective as Freedom of the Press and nothing more humilitating and effective -- like what happened in "Watergate" when someonen or some area which is stating "I am not a crook," if in fact, majorly corrupt-- exposed, but through that inalienable right of "Freedom of Press." However, if we don't use it, then those corrupt individuals in power will remain corrupt and in power. Also, V-P Elect Binden stated that "we need to fight abuse of power where-ever we see it." We all now-- as I view it, if we have a social conscience, have our marching orders, and for the first time in years, we at least have an possibility of being heard and making a difference....I don't see this group as being "mavericks." Nah...We are too sophisicated than that. I rather consider myself--- perhaps us, to be "Rebels." (Hey, I have already been arrested, even though I had FBI Clearance from being a US Attorney Law Clerk-- so what the hey.) And, since the Defendants argue that Mental Illness, i.e. Schizophrenia, Schizoaffective, and Bipolar are "in the genes,"-- and without any review of my parents or family's records, decided to also dignose them with "severe mental illness"-- even though no one has ever been disagnosed as such, I do accept that there is on occasion some family history of hypomania, i.e. from Alexander Hamilton. And, he was probably one of the greatest individuals of our times from my readings, being one of the three key three writers of "The Federalist Papers" which was the beginning of our breaking away from Britian-- and declaring our independence and establishing a democracy...He was called a "Rebel," so I figure that isn't a bad thing to be a times, and I have also read articles that there is a fine-line distinction between alleged "hypomania" and the excuberance/passion and enthusiam that makes inventions, starts nations, wins wars, elections, makes Martin Luther Kings, John F. Kennedys, Ghands, Mandal, and of course, Michele and President Elect Barak Obama, etc. My deep fear is-- had any of these individuals ended up in Sacramento, with a rare illness, with in a down time, as a Vet, with a drug reaction, as a rape victim, as a domestic violence victim, a molested child, had a loved one die, been a victim of police brutality, a victim of elder abuse, a developmentally disabled individual, etc-- any of these individuals, some of them who could have risen to be great leaders, made great contributions to society, wonderful and loving family members (like Ramona Knapp, Steve Burton, Jennifer (Georgia's Mom), the Administrator of this site, my own fiance who suffered deeply, profusely, immensely and whom was repeatedly lied to and mistreated by Heritage Oaks, Dr. Lloyd Benjamin and others (even though-- and the evidence will prove, he was even EOD advance team secret service for four Presidents-- Bush Sr.; Ford; Regan (two terms - Santa Barbara-- Western Detail but often went back to Washington, D.C. in Air Force One with the President and was asked by President Reagan to be at his 2nd Inaguration as probably his only Black Secret Service Agent-- demonstrating no doubt the discrimination and racism repeatedly shown to us as a couple in Sacramento County) and Carter. In addition, both President and Hilliary Clinton know him by appearance and U.S. Senators Feinstein and Boxer asked him to clean up the Roseveille Union Pacific Train Yard unexploded ordnance a few years ago which was left over from the Vietnam War (the evidence will show this at trial and also how my finance went for 44 days to Heritage Oaks with his creditals and medical evidence on my behalf-- but NO ONE at Heritage Oaks or Dr. Benjamin would meet with him. In fact, Dr. Benjamin writes in my medical records-- notwithstanding that my fiance (soon to be husband-- we have had to reschedule our wedding four times because of this case and my failing, disabling health) came to the hospital after work (or during lunch) with his work, professional clothes on and wearing his US GOVERNMENT ID BADGE with his many awards and pins on it-- and also came to every court-ordered doctor's appt. (after the Heritage Oaks LPS Conservatorship was dismissed by the Court. My Mother was right. "All it takes is two pscyhiatrists' signature to put you away forever." It almost, in fact, happened to me at Heritage Oaks-- and I have a juris doctor from U.C. Hastings College of the Law, been working in law since 1977, worked for the U.S. Attorney's Office, CA A.G.'s Office, the San Francisco D.A's Office, the Alameda County D.A.'s Office, the San Francisco City Attorney's Office, was Chairwomen for two years of the Victim Committee of San Francisco Women in Criminal Justice and on the Board of Executive Directors for San Francisco Women in Criminal Justice for two years, sued my law school for sexual harassment and WON, etc.,etc, etc.-- and was TOTALLY helpless against protecting and defending myself against both forced drugging, and being institututionalized on lies and admitted perjured facts, and could not even-- REPEATEDLY report being a victim of several sexual assaults in Sierra Vista and in Sacramento County. In fact, the rapist still is at large even though I have reported to both Sacramento City Police and the AG's Office-- and it is clear, NO ONE CARES....Thank you again for letting me share my truthful story...Even though I know it is rambling as it is extremely difficult for me to write in a box, with a migraine, being ill, etc., I believe no matter now fragments, disoriented, etc. my writing in there, somewhere the reader will be able to pull out the facts. By the way, since it seemed to be of such extreme concern and importance to law enforcement what my medications are, I am not on any anti-psychotics because I do not have: Delusional Disorder; Schizophrenia; Schizoaffective Disorder; Bipolar I or II, or any other delusional or pscyhotic disorder. I have also tested out as not having any character disorders, notwithstanding that a number of defendants have: by looking at me instead of giving me a standardized MMPI-II, decided in their professional opinion that I had to be one or several. (It is akin to the book, "I Am Dancing As Fast As I Can. She paid $50k going to many different doctors and collected a whole list of alleged "mental illnesses." In fact, she had about as many different mental illnesses as she had doctors and appointments-- but she prudently refused to take medications. Go figure about it all. She also stated from her observations that the patients who she kept in contact with who did not seem to recover were those who ended up on meds, particularly the anti-psychotics-- and those were the individuals who tended to cycle in and out of the instutitions and never got there lives back together. Go figure there as well. It is a fascinating memoir, and well worth the read-- and if my ex had not stold virtually all my possessions from years 0-43, I could give you the name of the author.)....Need to take a nap...Please keep up the good fight. I tend to think of the motto, "Onward Christian Soldiers"-- even though some individuals may not believe in a Christian religions. I have more faith in a higher power now than I have ever had because I have soooo-- over seeing much graft and corruption, lost much faith in the human race. After all, when two people get together, they will kick the "shit" out of the third-- or form a gang. Or in the case of PSI, make a huge, $467 Million profit, even if they have to lie, cover up, cheat, manipulate, destroy records, destroy families, murder, rape, repeatedly deny medical care, repeatedly deny constitutional rights, even work with law enforcement with 5150's to have a recycling of profitable patients (there is a working in tandem-- it is a win-win for both sides as will be proven in a court of law.) Anyhow, I am exhausted (and not manic); determined and driven (but not manic); a little OCD (like my cardiologist; my internal medicine doctor, and perhaps Alexandar Hamiliton. I have never had delusions or hallucinations no matter what is falsely written in my medical records. For example, Graduating from law school is not a "delusion" but the Truth, or working and being the first law clerk hired at the US Attorney's Office, San Francisco (allegedly for my common sense)--which will proven in court). Moreover, being pulled off of over 7 or more anti-paralysis medications, endocrine, sleep, anti-migraine and seizure, pain, Chronic Fatigue meds,-- as will be provened in course-- cold-turkey, did, in fact, induce the drastically changed mental and physical state that I had before my first 5150 to Sierra Vista, and which precipated my rape the second and third night-- sexual assaults which under the Penal Code of the State of California are still capable of being prosecuted, but which clearly-- to date, in Sacramento County, are not of concern to law enforcement, the District Attorney's Office, nor the Attorney General's Office, even though I started to repeatedly report the morning after. After all, I was "just a mental patient," and despite my remarkble and impeccable past legal professional and personal history-- being repeatedly sexually assaulted in Sacramento County, particularly in the for-profit hospitals, is really not anything worth nothing, or prosecuting. In fact, the evidence will prove at trial, that such sexual assaults are acts of violences that are repeatedly covered up by many individuals in many different roles, positions and positions of power and in different agencies, because-- after all-- again, this happened "just to a female mental patient in Sacramento County."
My Mormon Grandfather was allegedly one of two government trappers for the US Government in the late 1900's and in the early 2000's. My Father told me when I was in law school that there were two coyotes that were killing cattle around the Salt Lake, Utah area, and that there was a bounty posted on them. Being rough and tough-- and related to Butch Cassidy, my Grandpa Ross tracked them down from Salt Lake City, Utah all the way to the Grand Canyon, and as Daddy said it, "KILLED THEM DEAD." I said, "WOW, DADDY." I think of my Grandfather's tenacity, determination to "get those cayotes" who destroyed repeated the cattle and I can't help but think (and pray) that as time goes on, and that I get a little bit of my broken and scattered self back (and I was soooo totally destroyed in Sacramento that I KNOW I would have put myself in front of a speeding train had I stayed there-- and I was clearly not suicidal before I came to Sac County)-- and I pray that my little bit of the spark starts to be a fire, and I can get the help of others to help me "fight these Giants"-- that maybe I/we can get these cayotes who are leaving soooo many lives in devastation, havoc and with no regard to human live at all with a great profit for them. Also, I think perhaps-- even though PSI, SV, HO, Dr. Benjamins, some docs at UCD and Sutter, some police officers have ruthlessly, cruely and meanly shamed, blamed, and repeatedly abused me (I have been abused: sexually, physically, mentally, emotionally, verbally and spritually. There is nothing left. It does not take a genuis to figure out what I got so clinically sucidically depressed that my only HOPE was finding a speeding train in Sacramento County to stop the excruciating pain that was a but for of all the wrongdoing that had happened in that county.)...Well, it's nap time...I pray that all of you are well and do on a daily basis. This group is always in my thoughts that we make a difference and I hope you know that I also deeply feel your pain-- with all my heart...Warmly, Mary Smith P.S. Will be filing my Ex Parte approximately on Dec. 15 and getting married-- finally at 52 on Dece,ber 17, 2008. Heritage Oaks tried very, very hard to break us apart, but deep love is stronger than any graft, corruption and abuse of power-- at least, this time. Wish us luck. ms (Please note: Because of ill health: Written but not proofed. Thank you so much for your kind understanding.)
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